man.. i can say at this point of time i am terribly pissed off with myself.. i seriously know i dun have much time left BUT STILL I AM SLACKING MY BUTT AWAY...

why am i so lazy??? i seriously dun understnad at all.. how can people from RJC or some other well known JC students just mug their life away?? some say they have no life.. but sometimes i envy their discipline.. i try to study one hour and break half an hour but still i start to slack.. start to feel sleepy and tired.. worst still.. I AM NOT GETTING ANY SMARTER!!!

sometimes i seriously wish that i can prove that without education i can make a great living.. but can I?? i cant.. all those things about wanting to become a teacher..haix i think given my situation and my lazy behaviour of not striving hard enuf.. i will jus die and jus become a useless idiot and become a burden to the society.. let alone becoming a teacher.. haix..

test is like in3 days.. darn short.. and all i did is some "revision" in maths, physics and chemistry.. notice the open and close inverted commas.. who can help me?? i think i may jus start a study group.. where people jus come out to study on their own.. no distraction no nothing.. no talking no food no nothing.. AND I MEAN IT!!

i think only when that feeling of " i did something" sort of feeling come will i ever feel that i accomplish something.. haix.. for those that did nothing much.. i can understand.. hope we can do it.. as for those that studied well and hard already.. congrats.. ( worst case scenario now: i fail all my sub and got retain for one year.. i will really cry then..)

cya...